Circus life, am I right?
Well, entertainment, really. One day things are going great and your dreams are coming true, and the next you're back in the wasteland, fighting to get back in the stream. The struggle is real.
This past year has been a lot of learning and a lot of patience. A lot of ups and a lot of downs. A lot of hoping and praying and dreaming and waiting... and not a lot of return I was hoping for.
Not a year I wanted, but definitely a year I needed. I spent the entire first half thinking "today's the day!" for the contract I had wanted, but it never came. It was very draining and heartbreaking. Psalm 13:12 says, "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life." Needless to say, my heart was sick and I felt very unsettled. Gypsy folk need to be on the road, and circus folk need to be with a circus. Being stuck in one place for so long, with no end or promise-fulfillment in sight, was very difficult.
After a while, I just sort of settled in with my family in Florida, doing a few events and gigs here and there. Keeping busy and doing some performing helped keep my heart full and hopeful for more to come.
These gigs and events were such a blessing to my heart, to keep performing in some way and keep my skills sharp outside of teaching. (I taught a lot in 2018!) This year, more importantly though, was so wonderful for building lasting friendships and relationships. I was able to spend a lot of time with my parents and sister, deepening those connections. I also made some wonderful new friends at the studio and at church; true friends that will be around for the rest of my life. This, truly, is the greatest blessing!!
This year started with an offer, but not the expected one. I was offered to be Box Office Manager on a new third unit of Garden Brother's Circus, called King Cole Circus. It took me a little while to let it settle in, because I most want to be performing, but it is a great salary and a wonderful opportunity to expand into the future, so I ultimately accepted the offer. I still hope to perform a bit throughout the contract, as a fill in act or showgirl.
BUT! The road calls. The circus calls. The show must go on!!
I am excited for what the future holds and excited to bring you, my beautiful readers, along for the journey. Let's have an adventure!